a tense disquiet covers me
it blinds, corrupting all i see
this inner churning restless bent
excess energy so misspent
i cannot curb nor run from this
no escape to silence, no numbing bliss
she found herself inside a hole
it was so dark, so very cold
surrounded by voices
people talking
her isolation, sealed with caulking
she tried to clutch onto the sides
pull herself up
but she started to slide
and the next morning
when she awoke
her heart was parched
she started to choke
she was no longer within that abyss
but it brushed past her cheek
with an ominous kiss
the sun all around me
i am covered with rain
churning inside me
all this endless pain
no respite no sleeping
too tired for weeping
the sand on the beach
my only friend
grainy and true
until the end
the ocean is lapping
the beach with its wave
riptide internal
will noone save
either i am clowning
or else i am drowning