lost in tomorrow

stuck in today

too filled with worry

to frolic and play

i sit here wrapped

 in reverie

wondering what

and when will be

eagerly waiting

breathless tossed

warm although

the winter's frost

feelings strange

feelings new

trying to lose

my old world view

not to corrupt nor to stain

feelings good, with former pain

 

another year has come and gone

so many things to think upon

as this one starts

who is to blame

if it turns out...

more of the same

the trick to stop

no more to wallow

find  your wish

this wish to follow

change can come by revolution

but mostly comes by

evolution

make the change

life rearrange

 pseudo holiday levity

wishing it had brevity

smiles people faking

gifts they will be raking

noone wants to listen

just watch the tinsel glisten

an emotional shellacking

by things we feel are lacking

i write good poems

when my heart is broke

tears drenching my shoulder

i start to choke

otherwise i sit

with fingers still

waiting for words

im waiting still

 

confusion

in profusion

caused by self

delusion

fear of loss, rejection

fill me with dejection

i want to run from here

where too, not very clear