my heart

another night no sleep in sight standing still my inner swill afraid to move afraid to stay hope i dont waste another day

cannot sleep although i tried troubles deep disrupt my stride anxiety crawling for peace i am trawling

lost in tomorrow stuck in today too filled with worry to frolic and play

i sit here wrapped  in reverie wondering what and when will be eagerly waiting breathless tossed warm although the winter's frost

feelings strange feelings new trying to lose my old world view not to corrupt nor to stain feelings good, with former pain  

another year has come and gone so many things to think upon as this one starts who is to blame if it turns out... more of the same the...

 pseudo holiday levity wishing it had brevity smiles people faking gifts they will be raking noone wants to listen just watch the tinse...