musings and confusings
have i found peace
are all my troubles past
will all my heartaches cease
will all this goodness last
living as the seasons change
testing my emotional range
a chill is whispering in the air
breezing, dancing in my hair
yearning for a warm safe haze
as i sit here in a daze
autumn, winter not far behind
cant shake these changes
from my mind
i feel the quiet beneath my skin
it does create a mighty din
i feel the quiet around my soul
an empty part a vacant hole
i feel the quiet within and out
so loud at me it tries to shout
i cannot run i cannot flee
the quiet lives inside
of me
i ask myself as i sit here
what does life have for me
more hurt, more pain more loneliness
or perhaps a touch of glee
i can barely see today
i cannot see tomorrow
the past i try to sweep away
some joy id like to borrow
this was a night she spent alone
drinking wine talking on the phone
drowning in her old routine
thinking life so very mean
no sleep in sight no peace no rest
lost in her own empty nest
their time together
they laughed and smiled
fun was all they knew
but would she think
this was wasted time
as soon it would be
through?
the hours passed
the night grew long
she stood aghast
at all so wrong
surrounding her
amongst the mess
was there any good
is anybodys guess
she didnt trust his motivation
she sadly thought
with consternation
what from her did he really need
was it love or emotional greed
he needed her
she needed him
the future seemed
questionable
the past was grim